Hey y’all!
Junior and I have been together for 3 years now and I don’t know what has changed. This guy has always swept me off my feet time and time again, but recently things have been different.
Maybe its the ring on my finger and the reassurance of the future we will be having, but I have never felt more care free and easy going as I do right now. You can ask him yourself that I am a little ball of stress and most of the time take it out on him.
It is a horrible habit, but he knows when and how to ground me.
When we first started dating I was extremely easy going, fun, and stress free. But, our relationship went through my time of school, work, confusion, uncertainty, and fear. I say our relationship went through these things because even though it is my personal life, it was affecting us as a team.
Junior always knew how to handle it with stride. And I still don’t think I realize how grateful I should be.
Just this weekend, his two sisters were talking about love and something struck with me. One of them said “you choose to love somebody”. My mom has always told me that you “choose to stay”. But, Junior and I weren’t having issues to think about it in those exact terms. Until, Krystal said this same exact meaning in different words.
You DO choose to love someone. Junior chose to love me through all of my anxiety and I chose to love him through his nomadic career choices. We chose to say yes to one another and to love one another unconditionally.
You never think to look at love as a choice until you have to decide whether to stay or go. But, in reality love IS a choice because you CHOOSE that person to be your forever.
Recently, things started to feel like the old us. The ones who would stay out late and chase each other across town. The ones who forgot what time it was because we were too busy laughing at our own stupid jokes. The ones who can smile when we are mad because we know the disagreement will be over soon. I fell all over again, and even harder than before.
These past few years I have felt stressed and unfortunately it wore on the two of us. It was never a question that the stress would ever break us up because we knew how to handle it. But I can admit, having my carefree self SLOWLY coming back gets me eager for the extra fun times to come.
Y’all, I was so hesitant to date Junior. You can ask his and my family, and they would be the first to testify. But, if I hadn’t CHOSE to give him a chance and let him teach me to fall in love again, I wouldn’t be saying “I do” to the amazing person I am next August.
I did some major reevaluating of how great our relationship was and how much greater it is now. So yes, love isn’t easy but it is a choice. A choice to be there during the amazing times when they want to celebrate and during the awful when they want to through something at the wall.
Thank you mom, Kyrstal, and all of the other amazing people in my life to convict me with such powerful words. It takes some amazing people to inspire you to find what you are worthy of. Just remember that.
This has been your daily dose of Vitamin C!